Sometimes Life Doesn't Make Sense
This weekend has been one of the weekends that has made me question a lot of things about myself and why forming a relationship that leads to marriage is so hard for me. Over the years, I have dated several different girls that are so awesome, so fun, so spiritual and on paper, so perfect for me. For whatever reason, I have not been able to make the decision to marry them, or in some cases, even give them a real chance. I wanted to get this on paper so that I could attempt to explain something that has been a "mystery of heaven" for me. What I originally perceived as being a quick and simple process has become the biggest challenge of my life. I have decided to try and put my feelings into words. If this doesn't make very much sense to you, all I can say is, welcome to the club. I want nothing more than to be married. The thought of having a wife, a best friend and a companion that would become my eternal partner sounds like the best thing that anyone could ever dream